The first alarm sounds around 6:50am every day, but on most days I snooze until around 7:10am. I have little motivation to actually get up and start my day, as I generally have nothing exciting to look forward to. I get up, shave and shower, get dressed, and head out the door for the office every day at 7:50am.
I arrive at the office around 8:45am as the daily morning commute takes approximately 45 minutes. I get my coffee, log into my computer, and start my boring day. Typically I have a few projects going that I work on throughout the day. Lunch is usually around noon, and then it is back to the projects. The day ends and 5pm and I start my commute home.
I arrive home around 6:15pm, change out of my work clothes, and usually do some brief house cleaning. I start dinner around 6:45pm and usually eat by 7pm. Once dinner is over, I typically settle in for a night of TV and beer. I drink and watch TV until 10pm when I am usually pretty drunk and tired and then head to bed.
That is my life, 5 days a week, day in and day out. Nothing changes, nothing is ever exciting, and I am always alone. I often wonder why I continue with the monotony, but never seem to find a solid reason to do anything different. I guess there is a sense of comfort in knowing what the next day holds. Yet still I dream of change. Wishing and wondering what things might be like if I had the courage to change. Would I be happier? Could I become more of the person I wish I was? But that’s the rub. I am afraid of change. I cannot analyze the unknown. Because of that I stay, locked in my routine, the never ending rut that has become my life.
The only true thing I look forward to each day are my dreams. The one thing I cannot control. The only time I am truly free to feel and experience and enjoy all the things that life could be like. But then I wake up, the dreams fade, and my so call life starts again.
You can achieve a happyness through your dreams BUT your thoughts must be followed by actions!
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